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My Story - Onela Alone.
by: Me.

Alone.

Glancing up with a smile, she continued to run her fingers over the edge of the page, nodding once in approval of the idea that was presented to her. "I think that sounds magnificent, Tien, I cannot think of a better idea." Returning to her notes, she pulled both legs up and curled them beneath her, before finally settling down. "Is there any other news, Tien?" She felt the urge to look up and look her friend directly in the eyes, but she refrained and instead stared at the words on the page.



"None, Onela," Tienaere said quietly and Onela did not have to look up to see the disappointment in her friend's eyes. " Is there anything that I can do for you, Onela? I mean, anything at all?"

"Do for me, Tien?" Closing her eyes with a sigh, she sat back resting her head on the cushioned back of the chair, "No, Tienaere. I fear there is nothing that anyone can do for me now. How am I supposed to go on like this? I know nothing of this world and I do not want to know anything of it, if.." She could still not bring herself to say the words for it was still too soon for her to admit that he was gone.

It had been not even a week ago that she had woken up with this feeling inside that something had gone terribly wrong and like something was missing, but it was not a feeling she should have had the day after her wedding. She had instinctively turned to her side to wake Sage, but he was nowhere to be found. His side of the bed was empty, save a tiny piece of paper which she reached over and picked up, already dreading what it would read: "I had to. I'll be watching you always." The devastation had hit her hard and when Tien and Eilen had found her she was curled up in the corner of the bed, with her knees pulled up her chin and her eyes closed. She was not crying, but for three days she could not respond or communicate and no matter how hard they tried to console her, it did not work.

"Onela.. I know this has to be hard for you, but there has to be a reason, right? I mean, Sage would not just leave you unless he had a good reason..." Tienaere's voice trailed off at the end of her sentence and Onela heard her soft sigh and then the sound of her retreating footsteps as she moved to leave Onela alone once more.

"Or maybe.." Onela began, her heavy eyelids opening once more so that she could stare out at the dismal, cold morning once more.

"Onela?" Tienaere questioned her friend and Onela could hear the hope in her voice. Tienaere had known Sage far longer than Onela had and she knew that Tien wanted to believe in Sage, not because she believed in him, but because she wanted Onela to be at peace.

However, Onela did not and could not feel that way now that he she had been abandoned in this world that he knew she knew nothing of. "Maybe he was just another man that wanted to have a good time and when he realized that I was actually serious enough to marry him, he ran away. Maybe that is what happened, Tien."

"Onela, you know that cannot be the truth -"

"I wish to be alone now, Tien," Onela spoke firmly to her friend, letting her know that she was in no mood to have Sage's many great deeds and character traits pointed out to her.

"Of course, my lady," Tienaere responded softly and then she was gone and Onela was once again alone.

Pursing her lips together for a moment, she pushed herself up and out of the chair that she had been spending so much time in to get up and move across the room to the small shelf of books she kept in this room she now called her home. Running her fingers along the bindings of the books, she had to fight back the tears as she always did now, remembering how she was about to move out of this place and how she and Sage were going to find a small, quaint house where they could just be happy, but that was gone now. "Where did you go?" She whispered aloud, staring once again at the books, but seeing nothing at all. "What will fill this empty void inside of me now? This is my home now, but it is not my home... Kalinesti is my home and yet I wish to never return there.. there is nothing for me there." With her right hand she gently touched the beautiful ancient ring Sage had given her for their wedding, "Nothing at all.. I made a promise to Ellester that I would love you always and you did the same.. before my Ellester, Sage.. the Father of my people and now..."

Once again she was overcome with emotion and the uncontrollable urge to just leave it all behind; Tienaere, Eilen, this dirty little tavern, this horrific little town full of all these people and just go back home to fulfill her duty as the royal heir to the throne and marry that dark and sinister man. "But then what?" She asked herself, turning from the book shelf and moving instead to the mirror so that she could stand before it and study herself once again, "Was it me?" She still felt the same as the day they had met and she believed she still looked the same, but she could have missed something. "Was there something you saw that you did not like? Did I do something to chase you away?" She was shaking when she reached up with both hands to touch her temples, staring into the depthless green of her eyes and then moving her hands to run over the top of her head, smoothing out her dark, silver stranded curls just a bit before shaking her head and emitting a low growl. "I cannot say I blame you, Sage.. There will be something much better for you out there than me. I am only dangerous and you would have only gotten killed most likely.." Nodding, she forced herself to smile a little before retreating lastly to the bed where she sat down, and began to braid her hair. "This room still brings back so many memories, Sage.. even though it is so small and dusty.. but I think I need to leave here now because there is nothing here for me now. Nothing at all."

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